Wednesday, Night, Depressed.
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
Just blogging again to relieve some long-contained frustration.
I see some teen smoking and I feel angry.
I see my chemistry notes and got angrier.
I remember a recent chat and started punching my pillow.
All the hatred...rushing thru' my mind.
The world is screwed, our lives are screwed, my life is screwed.
This feeling...it has been haunting me for ages but I've never wanted to confront it nor stand beside it.
It is part of me. But I just cannot fight it alone.
Frustration. Anger. Chaos. Wars.
The foolish minds of humans.
I keep being attacked by those thoughts...everyday...hopelessly thinking that there might be some good in tomorrow.
Maybe...but maybe i've seen and read too much of pure, dominating, hatred.
Now I know how Hao feels...he needed that power for a reason.
And not because that things weren't going well for him.
This power...I seek it too...but no.
I cannot.
I, as a mere human, would get devoured by it instead.
A hopeless human.
A dying planet.
A f-ed up life.
(sorry i'm just plain frustrated.)
Let it Rain.
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