Dec 31 , Monday.
Monday, December 31, 2007
What a rotten day.
Work was most daunting today. No, not because of the endless stream of customers coming to eat, but because of myself.
After yesterday, I felt more of the 'decay' that was setting in. Irritable self, emotional, and a lot of physical pain.
It seems that even with the emotion exoskeleton, I'm still rotting. Outwards. And it's going to cause lots of trouble.
I still feel unwanted. After what all my friends said about 'stop thinking about it' and stuff like that, it just won't go away. The fact stays that I am someone nobody has taken a liking for.
It's so frustrating. I want to scream, punch, and cry my way out of this. But I don't think any of those things will work. I need a solution, and fast.
I need a girlfriend, and I don't think it looks like a joke.
Let it Rain.