Thursday, Night.
Thursday, February 15, 2007
Mood-de-rator: I don't know...Calm.
Going steady, breaking up, getting married or divorced...it has all become a part of life, more and more negative than before.
After a chat with someone tonight, it made me realise how I have always thought selfishly to get the girl I want. Is this really the romance I sought after? Is it really worth my effort to go all out to get them?
Maybe they were the smarter ones, they reject me, they prevent me from doing anything foolish...I don't know how to put it, but romance seems more and more like a subject the smarter I am. You have to be good at it to succeed, which really isn't the point.
Maybe I did everything for nothing, being someone who seeks love, be it input or output, every single day. I know it's hard to come by, but somehow, I just had to force things to work my way. Maybe there's too much love I want to give, so much so that I have to force someone to accept it. It really doesn't work that way no matter what you do.
Nevermind...just some random thoughts about this year's Valentine's. Although I gave stuff and probably made that someone happy, it was way different from what I pictured it out to be. Valentine's is supposed to be sweet and stuff, but what comes out are either a lot of couples' hearts, hand in hand, or a lot of broken hearts. It's just...not that happy anymore.
Maybe we guys deserve to be rejected. It's the women who chooses us, not the other way round. If we do anything it just make things worst...
There's more to this 'love' business than I originally thought it would be. I'd rather stick to friendship.
Happy to have been rejected,
Terensu the CraftKnight.
Let it Rain.
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