Tuesday, Night.
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
Mood-de-rator : At-choo! *Recoil*
Sometimes, when I lay down on my bed, I tend to think of things related to the opposite sex.
Things like sacrificing my life for someone and stuff.
Maybe I'm just plain foolish, but I know that deep down, I'll do it if I have to. I just will.
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Okay nevermind, my main focus isn't about that, the focus is more on the opposite sex itself.
Sometimes, I just stop to think : Why? Why do I get attracted to them all the time? Pheromones, or just my own desire to actually care for one?
Well, I don't deny my want to care for a girl, nor my need to be cared for by a girl, but there's always this fact that things just can't be said aloud. We know it, and they do, too. But somehow...*sigh*...
Some things just can't be said, after all. That's how one-sided affection exists. But, somehow this feeling just makes me feel like a total coward. I take a liking for this girl, but I don't even take the initiative to get her number or anything. It just looks like plain cowardice to me. Take last Friday for example. I know I would like to get a number from any girl over at the bowling lane, and the 'truth or dare' game requires me to, but somehow, I just can't do it!
It must be fear. Fear to be rejected, fear to be scorned at, fear this, fear that. I know the girls I once liked, and probably still have a liking for, didn't really mean to turn down a guy with such means but, somehow, it just hurts. I know this is a case for anyone who has tried it. It works both ways.
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Maybe I have to get more courage to go for it. It's what I did earlier this year. Gather courage, and let it all out at one go. I know I have a chance of getting hurt again, but still, if I don't give myself a chance, would the other party give me a chance? The answer is pretty obvious.
Convinced, but still hesitant,
Terensu The CraftKnight.
Let it Rain.
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