Wednesday , Night.
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
Terensu feels : guilty.
In the rare chance of walking alone from school, I managed to dig deep down.
Down into the concealed depths of my heart I go.
Terence : "Yo."
Heart : "You, didn't come down here just to say 'yo', did you?"
Terence : "Well, you know. Same old shit."
Heart : "Ah."
Terence : "You see, I've been single for quite a while now, and to be frank, I don't like it. I'd rather be tied down with something than to be too free and do foolish stuff."
Heart : "You finally explained your desperation."
Terence : "I guess I did. I had no clue why I was so desperate before."
Heart : "But tell me? How much courage do you even have left, to do a confession? Worst, do you even dare to love at all, after all these ordeals?"
Terence : "..."
Heart : "Now now Terence, hesitation won't get you anywhere. You know that you would want to do a confession again, and your previous time was successful with the help of Rita..."
Terence : "Please, don't mention her again. She's leading a good life."
Heart : "Whatever, she only lost contact with you. You know you want to do it again, but now the problem is, you feel too hurt by your previous experiences that you don't dare to try it once more."
Terence : "But I have to consider the other..."
Heart : "Be selfish for once, Terence? I know it's against your values to do that but, sometimes you just have to pop the question! Women are highly unpredictable creatures."
Terence : "Yea. Unpredictable."
Heart : "Now, now, if you want to do the confession, do it after you calmed yourself down. Free yourself from violent thoughts like slapping women and stuff. I know they deserve it sometimes, but please, not now."
Terence : "Uh huh."
Heart : "And also, try to remember the whole load of advices your friends gave you. Although also out of your own values, they're what modern people likes. You just can't deny that."
Terence : "You speak like I'm some old sage."
Heart : "Your heart also contains your wisdom, Terence. Now go, do some soul-searching, do whatever you want. Wait for yourself to calm down, communicate a little, before even considering to attempt to pop the question."
Terence : "I got it now. Thanks oh-so-mighty-one."
Heart : "Aww, shut up."
What an interesting heart I have.
Calming down,
Terensu : WinterDarKnight.
Let it Rain.
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