16/1/08
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Why am I just so stubborn and stupid?
Why must I slap myself back into the coffin, when for the slightest moment I feel unshackled from all the self-tormenting?
Terence, please, STOP THIS SHIT NOW!!! WHY DO YOU CARE SO MUCH ABOUT THAT STUPID SENTENCE??? Why? WHY???
It's all clear now-
The wounds are inflammed.
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I just feel so frustrated.
Maybe I should let loose and cry.
Maybe I should hit myself out cold so I won't even think about these things.
I've just had enough of my own weakness.
When can I actually begin to 'stop thinking about it'? Am I hurt to the point of no return? Is it so hard to wait? Is it so hard to ignore these matters? Is it? IS IT???
I'm unstable, seriously.
I'll have to get a grip on myself if I'm to be mentally sound.
If not, I'll head for a shrink.
Maybe they should install a memory block to help me forget the past.
All the 'maybe's...I'm in desperate need for someone to guide me right now.
-shakes head- You're pathetic, Terence.
In the end, you'll just be disappointed as no-one will help you, and you'll have to stand up from this fall, all on your own.
-shakes head- What loneliness. So it shall be.
Let it Rain.
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